Maybe it is the fact that I am not really feeling challenged by my job.
Or that I am not doing daily/weekly lesson plans that inspire me to think and be creative.
Or that I am not working as much with little friends who are constantly funny and engaging and full of interesting comments and observations.
But, I just feel boring!
So, I apologize.
There are some aspects of my job that I am not completely excited about right now, but I don't feel comfortable using my blog as a platform to complain about it. Mostly because I don't know everyone in my audience and I don't feel that I want to put certain things out there for anyone to read. I love my job, yet there are some things that I know are not right. I know I belong in the classroom.
With a sweet group of wiggly kiddos sitting at my feet
With more responsibilities
With more challenges
With opportunities to teach and compliment and revel in the learning that takes place
I miss the hugs.
I miss the sweet drawings and notes.
I miss the stories at the end of the day.
I miss the huge smiles that accompany lost teeth.
I miss the weekly lesson planning sessions with my team (which sometimes were accompanied by bags of Cheetos!)
I miss my planner and the satisfaction of having everything prepared and in order for the following day or week.
I even miss the grading!
I miss it.
I guess maybe it's getting me down.
I take so many classes and work so hard to learn everything about teaching that I can. I always have my nose in a book reading about how to be a more effective reading teacher or how to inspire students to be great writers. I learn how create an environment where differences are honored and kids from all cultures know they are accepted and feel comfortable to share who they are. I have all this "stuff" in my head, but I don't feel like I am putting it to use!
I can't wait go back!
I want to be a real teacher again.
Do you feel like you are the best version of yourself in your life right now?